I can't even believe I am about to talk about this here.
Today is voting day in Texas.
And my stomach is in knots.
My husband says it is no big deal because it is just the primary, but in my quest to take on more serious endeavors in my life, I think it is about time I made what I believe in a big deal.
Here I go.
I know, and feel strongly, about what I believe in generally.
I get nervous when trying to decipher and understand what "they" believe generally, AND more importantly, what "they" are going to do specifically about what "they" believe in generally.
So, I am going to talk out loud for a moment here. I am going to name names, but just so you will better understand my thought process. I would say so you could lend your insight, but that scares me on a whole other level. I am in no position, mentally or physically, to monitor political discussions at this location. So, while I welcome your thoughts, be ever so kind as you do so!
Let's rewind for a moment.
As a young person, I took on and many times embraced, the thoughts and beliefs of my parents and other mentoring adults in my life (grandparents, etc), in terms of religion, politics, general values. As I became a young adult, I retained those beliefs and feelings about certain things as I began to stretch my independent thinking skills at the same time. Over the last 10 years, I have probably experienced the most stretching as I really tried to discover why I believe what I believe. Not my values so much because I felt pretty good about them, but my political and spiritual views for sure. I think I was surprised at what a painful process it could be. Many times, it means letting go. Not of the people that did their best to nurture and teach you, but of their views and beliefs that you took on as your own without question.
I think I made it through the spiritual re-discovery in one piece. My beginning beliefs were well-rooted. I just had to make them my own.
Political re-discovery has been a whole different ballgame! For too long, I was just surface political. I knew what I had grown up with and I know where I stood now, but I have never really taken the time I should to really dig deep and know why I stand here. I will be plainly honest here-it just can be so darn confusing! And truthfully, I do know enough to know that there are so many things intertwined that make up our political/government system, that it is never just one person, one policy, one agency, one need, one solution. It just isn't that way. But that is what makes my head spin a bit trying to figure it all out.
So, here I am today! I am making my voice heard today. I will make it heard again in November. In between, well, I will just pray. Not just for the right one person, but for the right whole bunch of people that will work together to make good things happen.
And because I don't feel out on a limb enough here :), I am going to get a bit more specific. Yikes!
Obama- He seems like a nice, well-intentioned person. I am sure he has great vision and great ideas. I have viewed where he stands generally on issues, as I have with all the others. He and I could probably get along on some things, but I just don't feel we stand close enough on most things to say he is the one for me. And just honestly, I am a little concerned that he has this media frenzy behind him that is causing more people to choose him than he merits...and they don't even know why!
Clinton- Well, it hurts to even type her name. I am all for strong women and I would love to see the right woman as president some day, but she.is.not.that.woman! I don't believe her, don't trust her. I think her history of skeptical involvements is long and her past actions leave me wary (ok, plain scared!) of having her be the one to shape my family's future.
McCain- I don't know, I just don't know. Like the others, I searched and looked over his stance in general on the issues. We do stand close together on several issues. He obviously has a long history of experience. I don't think I would be displeased with him in general should he be elected. I guess I would just really hope he keeps a good balance of people around him to help him do the job.
Huckabee- As with the others, I have seen his views on the issues. Although he is an experienced leader, I am not sure he has the same type of experience as the others in several areas. My hope would be that he would surround himself with the best of the best to lead this country effectively. The thing is I trust him. In the ways it counts the most (to me), I have peace about him. I have peace that he would not only make decisions based on facts, but on the same foundational beliefs that I hold as well. I am making my vote count for him today.
I don't have all the answers here. Heck, I don't even have some of the answers! But I will keep moving forward in the direction of learning more and discovering more about why I believe what I believe. I am a political issues babe who is still using the training wheels, but at least I am the one doing the peddling now!
Now for someone who has worked on this pondering stuff a bit longer than me! I leave you with thoughts from my friend Andrew. We may not make the same decisions when it comes to this political stuff, but I really appreciated how he shared his thoughts today!